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Monday, August 31, 2009

9:19PM

不是说休息是为了要走更长远的路吗？可是，为什么休息过后，我连路都不想走了？原因只有一个：这条路根本不是我想要走的。

Current mood: depressed

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Monday, November 13, 2006

Saturday, October 21, 2006

12:28AM

life sucks!!! pek chek!

Current mood: frustrated

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Saturday, September 30, 2006

Sunday, September 17, 2006

2:04PM - $43 richer.. hahaha

after 3 5台s 自摸 and a few 4台s, i ended up $43 richer after yesterday's mj session. got a feeling they are gg to ban me from playing soon.. haha.. but my luck was really quite good for the past few sessions. wished i had such luck in other stuff too.

on fri i was on the phone with S for nearly 2hrs. cant really remember when was the last time i talked for so long on the phone. catching up was fun. we talked about a lot of stuff. from the guys in her life, her job, my life and wat i wanna do after graduation. i think she and larry are my oldest frenz. cant beleieve we already know each other for 18 years. although we are at different phases of our lifes now, quite glad that we can still catch up with one another once in a while.

posting on the HR forum is really stupid. can never think of any qn to ask. then whenever i try to ans the qns, i always think that my ans sounds stupid. and that i am juz making a fool out of myself. haiz.. but got participation marks leh. stupid also must post something. saw pple with 20 over posts already. while i only posted 4 times. :S i still remember the last time i had to post in forum was for property management. think i only manage to post 2-3 times. then i got syl to post for me. she damn power lar. within one night she posted 20 somethng posts, and she's not even taking that module. too bad cant get her to help me this time round.

Current mood: blah

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

12:14AM

writting lit review for FYP is such a torture... sianzzzzzzzzzzzz

Current mood: bored

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

Friday, September 8, 2006

12:40AM - random tots

quite suprise that there are still pple reading my blog.. tot all my LJ's friend's "dead" liao. anyway the previous post was suppose to be private. but posted it accidently. but it doesnt really matter anyway.. glad that there are still people reading my entries... next time do leave ur name behind when u comment k. after so long, i have already forgotten who know my blog add already..... to the anonoymous who always post comment at my first entry: next time post ur comment at the latest entry leh.. otherwise i also dun know wat u commenting about. ur comments not related to the first entry.. took me sometimes to figure out that u were actually refering to the last entry. :P

nothing much happen recently, at least nothing that i wanna blog about happened. life still pretty much the same.. juz shuttle between sch and home. HRM is getting stressful though. presentation is on mon.juz finish my "script". hope that the class will find our videos funny.. quite badly done. but will have to do. no time liao.

oh ya juz remembered something. Del says she is getting married next year on may 13th. i wonder if she still remember the sig of the date. most probably not i guess...i still do though. but i guess it doesnt mean much. so long ago already.

Current mood: blah

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Wednesday, September 6, 2006

12:27AM

somethings are juz not meant to be, i guess... but in any case, i am glad we were able to sort things out...
a day to commemorate indeed!

Current mood: peaceful

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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Monday, August 15, 2005

12:49PM

todae's bbq was a success!! ha ha.. so many pple turn up. for those who never turn up, too bad...including councillors, 17 pple were there todae. considering the fact tt during Oweek, i normally have abt 10 pple in my gp, i think 17 is really veri good. had lots of fun juz now.. big thank you for all those who turn up...
damn! kelvin got into the finals. wth. wat were u pple thinking??? dun u think jy makes a better superstar..haiz...but heng, kelly got in..

Current mood: chipper

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Friday, August 12, 2005

Thursday, August 11, 2005

1:22AM

i am fucking pissed off now!!!!!!!!!! stupid bitch!

Current mood: angry

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Sunday, July 31, 2005

1:12AM

i had a nightmare last night. suprisingly i still remember wat it was all abt. dun normally remember my dreams one. i guess pple tend to remember nightmares ba. since they leave a deeper impact. wont say wats the nightmare is abt here, but i hope it will never come true. though i think there might be a possiblity. haiz..
sometimes i feel disappointed wif the pple ard me. like i expect them to behave in a certain way or do certain things but they never do. i guess they are not like robots and i cant order them to do whatever i want them to do ba. always feel disappointed when they dun live up to my expectations. but i guess i dun live up to their expectations most of the time too.. tts life.

helped en han wif a workshop conducted at TCH on fri. wei qin was there also and he sort of gave us a tour of the sch.after gg round the sch, i really feel tt life is unfair. wth! after the workshop, en han was asking me if given a choice would i still wanna go to a neighbourhood sch or would i prefer to go to a top ranking sch ( tt is provided tt i can get it first lar). i think i would still choose to go to yishun town. even if the top ranking schs have better facilities and teachers, so wat? i dun think i will ever be happy there. i guess i will never fit in. tt kind of environment is juz not for me.

Current mood: gloomy

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

10:26PM - lalalalala

Matric fair was boring!! damn boring. kanna Med fac matriculation day. such a painful experience. 2 hrs of matriculation and the no of girls could be counted with my fingers. worse than engine. plus few of them seems interested in sailing. i guess diving and windsurfing are more attarctive. more cool ba. afternoon session was slightly better. Sci fac. at least more girls. although the quality was juz as bad. a few former sch sailors sign up. they dun seem really interested when they find out tt we dun sail laser. dun think they will join... but whatever lar... dun care...

on the train back yesterday, i met a sch sch fren. this fren i never talk to since "O" levels.the fren said he almost couldnt recognise me and then proceed to use hand gesture to indicate tt its bcos i have grown fat.zzzz!!!
anyway i never like meeting pple tt i have not seen for a long time on the bus or train. theres no place for u to run away. will be force to make small talks. it would seem rude to juz on my FM and ignore him/her rite? anyway, yesterday was still ok. at least me and the fren still have things to talk abt. we talk abt his job, my sch, his love life, and my lacked of love life. the most awkward time was when one of us reached our station and have to alight. do i, as a form of courtesy, ask for his handphone no and promise to keep in touch (something i know i will never do)? while i was struggling abt wat to do, the fren announced tt he has reached his station and with a "goodbye" alighted.

yesterday was my mum's bdae. my bro actually called from US and sang her a "happy birthday" song. yes! SING! i couldnt believe it when she told me. i suspect its the gf's idea. my family was never the mushy type. although we celebrate each other bdae, we never sing the "happy birthday" song bfore. usually its juz a simple dinner outside or juz a cake.i forgot abt her bdae altogether. actually not forget lar. i never remember it in the first place. so my father had to call me yesterday and ask me if i wanna buy a cake for mother. actually i was quite suprise to receive the call from him. my father never call me unless my mum is with me. usually its my mum who does the talking. my younger bro was probably the "best" among the 3 of us. we were waiting for him to come back to cut the cake yesterday night. i didnt bother to tell him tt it was her bdae since i tot he will be home soon anyway. he smsed me and told me that he will be home late. watching a movie in town. haiz... so in the end we cut the cake without him.

my timetable for next sem, without the labs seems empty. and for the first time, i have a free day.2 years in engine has taught me tt this is highly unlikely. i am sure i will be forced to schedule some tut or lab on tt day. damn...

going for movie later. hope "the island" is good! waiting for "seven swords: and "charlie and the chocolate factory" to come out next week. hopefully there will be time to watch.

Current mood: cheerful

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

1:48PM

feeling sad now. dun know why.. i get this kind of mood swings all the time.. worse then PMS i think. seriously dun know wats wrong wif me. so much things tt i wanna say, yet so many things i dare not say. guess some things are best left unspoken. life is full of contradictions. i am one big contracdition myself. haiz...

sometimes i wonder why i even bother. i am juz deceiving myself and all those ard me. not making any sense......think i shld go cry myself to sleep... life sucks.

Current mood: depressed

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

11:52PM

SSC is finally over!!yeah! glad that everything went on as planned. nothing bad happen, except for a few minor accidents(ai ya actaully juz a few cuts only lar) and a missing buoy. let see, during the 3-day camp, i took 14 pple out sailing, and only two of them capsized. quite li hai rite? didnt really see anyone tt i know at the camp, although there were a few from engine. hmmm the only one tt i can recogines was miss CYR. i took her out on my boat. when i told her i know her, she was quite suprised. i told her i used to sit behind her and her gang during lectures in year 1. oh ya, and she admit tt her gang is veri noisy. haha.. the noisy gang. see, i was rite abt them. :P
quite sad tt the camp is over. been spending so much time wif the club pple and suddenly dun get to see them liao. haiz.. but there is always the sailing camp to look forward to. hopefully tt one would be a success too. one good thing tt came out of this camp was tt some of them finally resolved their issues wif RSYC. well, at least they dun mind sailing there now. so hopefully, we can settle the other minor issues soon.
glad that zi yang and the rest had fun at st john isl. too bad cant join them for the GP camp. seems like things juz like to happen on the same day. of all days SSC and GP camp juz had to happen on the same day. haiz. well maybe next time ba. hope tt u guys will still join us for the nect GP camp.

也许是因为前几天都为了SSC在忙吧，所以觉得时间过得非常快。今天突然无所事事，有点不习惯。juz slacked ard todae. didnt feel like gg swimming wif li qiang cos wanted to give my skin a rest. been over exposed to sunlight liao. dun wanna get skin cancer. went for coffee wif xian zhong in the afternoon. tt guy juz came back from taiwan. haven seen him for abt a month liao. i dun know why, but while having coffee todae, both of us suddenly run out of topics. so we juz sat there and drink our coffee. so strange. hmmmm

hey ken, haven been hearing from me. drop me a mail k?

Current mood: cheerful

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Wednesday, June 1, 2005

Friday, May 27, 2005

Monday, May 16, 2005

12:18AM

whenever i login to MSN i always wonder wat the pple on contact list are doing. blogging, chatting or are they like me, waiting for pple to talk to them also. on nites when i am feeling lonely, i stare at my contact list and wish that one of them would chat wif me. but most of the time, most of them are either "away" or "busy". and i end up as lonely as ever.:(


很多时候，事情都不是我们所能掌控的。有谁不希望自己的爱情能天长地久，但很多时候这是不可能的。该放手的时候就放手吧。再苦苦地抓住已经不属于自己的东西又何苦呢？失去你是他的损失。你失去一个不爱你的人，而他却失去一个深爱着他的人。所以你不应该伤心。

Current mood: bored

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